look at me.

i am a short
19-year-old
who currently
weighs 150
pounds and
you're telling
me that i'm
fat?
that i need
to lose more
weight?

in your own words,
150 pounds
isn't good enough
and that i can be,
that i have to be
thinner;

why can't you
let me be
happy with my
own weight
for once in my
life?

i know, i know...

i know that i need to
be a certain weight
so i don't develop
the risk of diabetes
or any other diseases,
besides the one
i already have.

look at me,
look at you

i told myself
as i forcefully looked
in the full body mirror.

i saw a girl that
looked fine, looked
cute being a bit
on the chubby side;

i saw a girl that
has been having
self-esteem issues
for 7 years now.